Friday, July 30, 2010

What A Day

(Carter enjoying the train ride.)

Yesterday was Carter's 2nd birthday! What a day we had!

First, we picked up Grammy and met Grandma Joyce, Grandpa Dave, Uncle Darin and cousin Ian at the Topeka zoo. It was about a thousand degrees outside and we decided that zoo trips in July are a bad idea. After we all made it through the zoo alive, we rode the little train around Gage park. Carter loved it!

We then went for lunch (which was amazing!) and then to the mall for some cooling off and some shopping. After the mall, we met Pa, Uncle Craig, Aunt Mary and cousin Cole at Applebees for supper. (Applebees is Carter's favorite restaurant- or so he says.)

We topped the evening off with ice cream from DQ and some relaxing at home. It was a great day and I can't believe my baby boy is 2 years old!

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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Getting Back (2)

We celebrated the beginning of Carter's birthday week (that's right, we like to spread it out) on Saturday evening. It was Carter's 2nd Birthday bash at Buzzards. It was a ton of fun and sooo nice to have it over with. Now, we just have Thursday to make it through- that is his actual birthday.

About 2 seconds after Carter's party I started feeling terrible. Seriously. I thought I had escaped the cold that has ravaged everyone around me. It had been well over a week since everyone else came down with it, so I should be safe, right? Apparently not.

As for other things going on- we had someone come and look at our house. It was the same old song and dance- great home, clean, nice yard BUT.... Ugh. The dreaded but.

Darek and I have been talking about it pretty much nightly. We have decided that we aren't paying out payment this month. Gasp! I feel so naughty! But happy. There might be an end in sight. I am going to go (hopefully) Friday and get new tires. Slowly, my list of worries is shrinking.

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Thursday, July 22, 2010

Getting Back (1)

Somewhere along the way we got lost. I don't really know how else to explain it. First came the house. Then the car, a child, and a number of other purchases. A business. Another child on the way. And with each thing we got a little further off the path.

I have decided to use this blog as more of a diary for now- I need a way to get it all out. And heck, its my blog so really I can do whatever I want! I'm going to be doing however many of these posts I feel I need to, and maybe just a random regular one here and there when I dont feel like talking (er, blogging).

I guess I should clarify a thing or two first. What I mean by 'we got lost' is that financially we got lost. We lost track of goals and savings and focused on the 'now'. That is our stack of bills in the picture. Actually, its been worse so thats not a bad shot. But you can see how we are now in over our heads. Who needs all the stuff that we have? I know we thought we needed it at one point, but at what expense? I know that stressing out every single day thinking about it is NOT worth a new(er) car, a flat screen tv or some other unnecessary item.

We are trying to sell our house. It's not going so hot, to be quite honest. I think our realtor is unmotivated by the lack of commission she will get when (if) she sold it. We have had 2 open houses and a handful of people come look. The kitchen is too small, its on a gravel road, blah blah blah. Basically, things we cannot change. So what now? We have a baby coming in November, I worry EVERY single day about blowing out a tire on my car as I am driving because my tires are so bad, oh, and that stack of bills up top to pay. Darek and I both need our eyes checked and new contacts (who said those 30 day contacts can't last you a year- pshaw), Carter needs fall clothes, and did I mention a baby will be here in November??

So what is one to do? We have been thinking about just walking away. We have a place to stay (we are going to stay at my parents' house). And, really, if we are together as a family isnt that all that matters? We will be fed and have a roof over our heads and we will be together. Keeping our credit score up has nothing over on all that. Its just a number (a somewhat important one, but who's keeping track?).

One minute I am SURE of what we should do. Walk away. Let the bank take the house back. Just shrug when people say they saw our name in the paper under the foreclosure section. The next minute I am so scared and embarrassed. What will people think? And I dont mean that in a personal way- I mean for our business. Will people think we can't handle it? Will they not come in and eat pizza?!?! I know nothing about the foreclosure process except for what google has told me. And it has scared me to death. And the next minute I am looking at Carter thinking that as long as he is happy that's all that matters. He doesnt know what his mom and dad's credit score is nor does he care. This new baby won't care either, especially if she has clothes to wear home and a carseat. And then scared again.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

These boots were made for walkin'

Someone has discovered my fake Uggs. Perhaps a bit out of season, but he is rockin' them anyway. He is quite the trend setter.

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Friday, July 16, 2010


Today it hit me. Really hard. I'm 6 months pregnant. Did you know that? Why didn't you tell me?!?

But, seriously, time has gone by really fast. I feel so unprepared for this baby. We only have blue stuff with baseballs and dogs and tractors on it! I want pink stuff with lace and bows and flowers, but I keep putting it off. What have I purchased for this baby? One outfit. ONE. I keep thinking "Oh, ill have time to get that stuff later," but will I? It seems that something always comes up, so when am I supposed to do this? I'm sure we will find time, but right now it seems so impossible. Deep breath.

Ok, panic attack over (thanks for listening).
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Almost all of our company is gone. The reunion is all done, leftovers are almost all consumed and its time to get back to the daily routine. Except Carter has a summer cold (which are the absolute WORST). So, it looks like we have just a while before things are completely back to normal.
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Monday, July 12, 2010

Family Reunion

We've been busy this past week getting ready for the big family reunion and entertaining out-of-state family. It has been a lot of fun! It all culminated in our big reunion on Sunday.

To some, family reunions aren't a huge deal or are a yearly occurrence, but when your Grandma had 13 children, it takes a bit to get everyone together. Needless to say, it had been 10 years since our last reunion. Families have grown, the babies from 10 years ago are no longer babies, and new generations have been born. Yet when you see your family (even after 10 years) it seems like nothing has changed.

It was great to see everyone and I will post more pictures soon!
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Tuesday, July 06, 2010


That's right- I said OMG!!! Look at this bag! It is my dream diaper bag. It is only about $200 over my budget (its $218). But it is TO DIE FOR! Drool with me.
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Monday, July 05, 2010

THE Name

It came to me as I was laying awake the morning of my ultrasound. I was too excited to sleep (or in pain from my hips hurting, take your pick) and my brain was going a thousand miles an hour. I was hoping for a girl, and I was thinking about cute girl names. This one name stuck in my head, but it wasn't quite right. So I thought about the same name, but beginning with a different letter. And add a letter in the middle. And it was perfect. It was THE name (and I'm thinking THE like theeee not like thuh. Say it again: Theee name. Capital letters.) It goes well with Carter, its cute and I hope its pretty original (I don't think I have heard it before unless it was subconsciously). What's the name, you ask? I'll tell ya when I convince Darek that its perfect (almost there).
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Friday, July 02, 2010

Just Farmin' Today

I haven't had too much to blog about lately. Our highlights included finding out that we are having a girl (despite Darek declaring that he "only has boys"), farming with Pa, and the upcoming 4th of July festivities. Did I mention that I hate the 4th of July? Its terrible. I'll take one order of picnicking with a side of games, but hold the fireworks, please. They are awful. So, have a safe and happy 4th, don't blow any fingers off, start any wildfires or get arrested and I will talk to you after I take my earplugs out.
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