This is how I feel today

(Don't worry- she is fine. She just wasn't getting her breakfast fast enough.)

Today I feel like having some wine time.  Wait. No.  WHINE time.

Maybe wine wouldn't be so bad either.  I usually try not to complain too much about stuff.  I try to see the positive, blah blah blah.  Today I am just not feeling that. I just want to be a grouch.

My neck hurts really bad. I have been (not) sleeping on it wrong.  The whole 2 minutes of sleep I get at night are apparently the wrong way and so I can barely move my neck.  I will probably visit a chiropractor soon.

Why do I only get 2 minutes of sleep? Because I have 2 extra teeny bodies in my bed every night.  But they don't seem so teeny when they are taking up half the bed.  And when I am getting kicked in the face/stomach/etc.

The kids are driving me nuts today.  (And just so you know, it is only 7:42am)

I am sure there is more to whine about but I have to go get ready. We are going to a parade.  And it better not rain.

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Did I sign up for this??

I guess if my life was a reality show it would be a different version of Survivor. You know, let's see how much we can have Emily do at once without her head exploding. The truth is, I signed myself up for all this junk.  Well, some of it was a surprise. I helped start up the Quenemo PRIDE group- we are going strong so far.  There are only 388 people in our town, but 40 people show up to the meetings.  I consider that a pretty darned good turnout.  Anyway, I am planning several things at once- I just purchased shirts for a fundraiser and now I am setting my sights on next year- I want to plan a carnival, a parade, and a 5k.  This should be fun!  We have meetings once a month (the last Monday of the month- unless it is a holiday) so come if you are in the area.  I am the secretary so you will see me burning a hole in my paper jotting down the notes and running around like a chicken with its head cut off. As you know, I am also going to school.  This semester I decided to only go half-time, so I am taking 6 hours.  I am doing well so far- I will be disappointed if I finish with anything other than an A. And then something unexpected came up.  A part time job came open for our city.  It sounded perfect- 30 hrs per month would give us just a little extra money to use.  So I decided I would apply for it. And I did. But then something even more unexpected happened.  My mom has worked for the hospital for 15 years (more than that, really, but this was 15 consecutive now) and they had a Service Awards reception so the kiddos and I went with her.  While I was there, my former boss came up and asked if I would be interested in coming back to work at the hospital.  I told her I would have to think about it. So I have been.  Thinking.  And more thinking. Mostly at night so it keeps me awake.  I came to the conclusion that I will probably go back to work. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE being a stay at home mom.  Seriously, A LOT.  But this will help us out a lot.  I asked if I could work 4 8-hour shifts and she said that is fine.  So, Mimi will go back to working weekends so she can watch the kids during the week and then I will probably go back to work (I still have to apply and go through all the hoops again).  It will be tough but I just have to keep thinking that we will get out of debt even faster  which will help us out in the long run. I guess that is my show then.  Work, kids, school, PRIDE group and whatever else comes up next.  Stay tuned.

*sigh*

(i heart my phone- especially since it can take vintage-y pics like this) What a dreamy time of year. I can't stop smiling- there is a chill in the air and it gives you a bounce in your step after the summer beatdown. We have been outside burning brush, throwing wood, taking our time doing chores we had been rushing through all summer, and swinging. Lots of swinging. It is around 50° in the mornings, a cool 60 by the time we are ready to get out and about. We put on our jeans and longsleeve shirts and it is HEAVEN. Then, after dinner it is cool once again and we have to huddle by our brush fires to stay warm if we want to stay outside. *Sigh* Its perfect. I hope it stays around for a while. (I won't be outside tonight- I am going to represent Quenemo PRIDE at the city council meeting. I heard it through the grapevine that we might receive a nice donation tonight! Wish me luck!) Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android

Selfish

Yesterday I was having a bit of a selfish day. Everyone is allowed one now and then, right? I love my kids and my family is my world. Nothing is more important to me. That's why yesterday caught me a bit by surprise. It started at lunch. I make Carter and me something to eat. I get him started eating his lunch. Then I make Kinsley something. When that is done it is time for me to eat. Only it isn't really. I forgot a drink for Carter. I get up, get it and hand it to him. Sit down again. I forgot the ketchup and Carter dips EVERYTHING in ketchup. I get up and get it. Kinsley starts screeching because her tray has been empty for .0001 second. I give her more food. And by the time I get some cut up to prepare for the next screechfest, she has already cleaned her tray so I have to cut up more. Repeat about 596 times. Eventually I get to sneak a bite. Mmm, cold (sometimes soggy) food. Will I EVER get a warm meal again? And again at bedtime- more selfishness. I get Kinsley to sleep. Darek is asleep because he has to wake up super early to work overtime. And Carter isn't even close. My eyeballs feel like they have sand in them and my eyelids feel as if they are trying to hold up 50lb bags. But I can't go to sleep untill both kids are asleep. Carter would inevitably need a drink/pee/story and would just wake me up anyway. So I wait. And wait. And wait. (It was 11:00 at that point.) Carter falls asleep (finally!) and now I feel as if I had drank a route 44 cherry coke from Sonic. I was buzzing with energy. But I laid there anyway. And thought about all that I needed to do the next day/week/century. And about how I wonder if I will EVER get to be the first one asleep. I would even settle going to the bathroom by myself for once in 3 years. But today things are back to normal. My cold lunch will be ok. After all, if I make me a hammie sandwich its cold anywsy, right? And I drew Carter a picture while I was in the bathroom (some of my best art, I must say). And I will cherish the 30+ minutes of silence after everyone goes to bed and before my brain wants to turn off. And one of these days I will go to a restaurant alone (Darek can babysit) and I will eat first. :) Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android

I am TIRED...

Notice that is in all CAPS.  That means I am very serious.  I am TIRED.  Darek has been working 10 hour days this week.  Which, you may be thinking to yourself, means that HE is tired.  Which, I am sure he is.  But that means that I am home alone with the maniacs for an extra TWO HOURS.  That feels like a whole extra day by the time 5:00 has rolled around.

Also, you will notice there is no picture today. I tried to send it several times from my phone but I guess it is TIRED also.  Poo.

I have been extremely busy with my new project.  We have the Quenemo PRIDE group up and running.  This week I got a highway adopted by us and designed a shirt for the group.  And had a meeting. And tomorrow I am going to set up the bank account.  And Wednesday is a City Council meeting, at which I will speak on behalf of the PRIDE group.  Etc, etc.

I have also started school.  I started out with 4 classes.  I am not sure what I was thinking.  12 hours, forming a non-profit group, and two children is a bit much to take on all at once! So, I had to rethink my plans.  I would rather take 2 classes and get A's in them then take 4 and do average work.  I dropped the two classes I wasn't really interested in.  That left me with Ethics and World Religions, both of which I find extremely interesting.  It is hard to only take 6 hours because I only have 20 some left before I am done, but I have to remember what is truly important and that is making sure the kiddos are happy and healthy and have a lot of my attention.

I am still running.  I was going to today but I have a migraine.  AGAIN.  I think I will go back to the Dr and get a better medication or something because my once a month migraines have turned into about 4 a month.  Not cool.  Anyway, I hadn't been running as far when I run (I have been doing like 2 to 2.5 miles) but the other night I felt great so I did a little over 3 again.  I sure love how I feel when I am done! It is an inconvenience to find time to do it but it is so great afterward.  But I need to re-evaluate my running/eating plan so I quit losing weight! I don't want to be scary skinny!

I think that is it for now.  Pics to come soon.